Snow White

Hola chickas!

Its Wednesday and we are finally over the hump. Man what a week already!  Anyways breakfast was awesome this morning!

coffee yogurt and special k sandwich!

 

Then I got hungry a bit later and had an apple

 

Makes me think of Snow White, yo.

 

For lunch I had a very unimpressive lasagna and salad with sautéed zucchini.

 

 

Then I had some strawberries for a snack later on

 

 

And for dinner I had a hamburger patty with onions and mushrooms (not pictured) with sweet tater waffle fries and some roasted cabbage.

 

 

Definetly had one too many fries tonight...a few of the hubs too. BAH!

 

And then I had an 80 cal ice cream and a handful of m & m's.

 

 

 

This little miss was so excited waiting for her daddy to get home tonight, I had to take a pic :)

 

I hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday night!

 

Bittersweet Back to Normal

Hey guys...sorry for the absence again.  Things should be getting back to normal.  The brother just left today to go to Jacksonville for training.  10 days passed pretty quickly.

I actually got back on track today, I am very happy with my eating!

This is a Special K breakfast sandwich.  This one is 240 calories, Sausage Egg & Cheese.  It is sooo good!  They keep you full for a while too.

Lunch today was subway oven roasted chicken on honey oat bread with provolone cheese, all the veggies, mustard, vinegar, salt, pepper and oregano.  SO good!  With a side of baked lays.

I chewed a lot of gum today but did NOT snack!

On the way home I stopped and got groceries, feels so good to have a stocked kitchen again!

Salmon burger-170 cals

Instant mashed potatoes-160 for half cup

Then I sautéed some zucchini in olive oil spray with salt n pepper and cut up a fresh tomato.

Such a light and delicious supper!

 

For desert I had one of these for 80 calories...

 

I picked these up for $1.99 at Aldis and they are delicious!

 

I wanted to share a few pics from the weekend with you all!

 

Saturday me and my mom, aunt and grandma and brother's girlfriend all went and had a pedicure/and or nails done!

 

 

 

Mommy treated me.  Thanks Mommy!!

 

Then for Mother's Day the brother donned his dress blues per mothers request :)

 

 

This was also to surprise grandma at church.

 

 

 

 

Then we went to grandmas for a lunch get together.

 

 

 

 

Ladies, that guy in the chair is single. Holla.

 

 

 

And yesterday night we just hung out at my parents with my brother for his last night at home.  Hubby gave him a fresh haircut and we had delicious sloppy joes and hot dogs made by Mom.

 

Happy (late) Mother's Day to my beautiful mother and all you other Mom's out there!

 

 

HALFing it.

 

If you are looking for a happy, jolly flowers and sunshine post today, this is not it.

I am feeling frumpy, and fat and particularly un-motivated.

I feel like I am half-ing everything. 

I am halfway doing things at work.

I am halfway doing housework.

I am halfway in a marriage.

I am halfway in my weightloss efforts.

I am halfway putting effort into my spiritual life.

I am halfway LIVING.

I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS.

I want to be super motivated. 

I want to be CONSISTENT.

I want to be FREAKING AWESOME AT EVERYTHING. 

I know I cant be freaking awesome at everything but I want to excel at at least ONE thing for crying outloud.

I was feeling so positive and so good about myself last fall. 

This winter has sucked for my weight loss and so has this spring. 

Maybe its just ME who has sucked for my weight loss. UGH.

Yall I just need to vent.  I am so freaking stressed out on so many freaking levels. I just want to SCREAM.

I had stupid waffles for breakfast and was hungry again when I got to work and I was hungry ALL DAY LONG. SOOOO annoying. 

And I have been stress eating. And sleeping. And thinking.  And I just need a vacation. 

I am not finding satisfaction or happiness anywhere I feel like!  Do you guys ever feel like that? I mean I haven't even had a particularly bad day or anything its just all falling on me at once. 

Then I feel like a big whiney baby with first world problems complaining about my gold ring not being shiny enough.

Well I hope someone at least understands how I feel.  Maybe you are there now.  Maybe you have BEEN there and know how to get back.  I just need my mojo back.  Maybe I am at rock bottom? I haven't weighed myself in like a week, and it wasn't pretty.  The 30DS was basically a waste of time for me to eat the way I did this past week. And every night when I get home I just want chocolate and marshmallows. EFF!!!!

Ok so I am going to leave you with a picture of my happy place...to calm my nerves <3

 

 

 

 

Gatlinburg, TN

 

My favorite place on EARTH.

 

Ok so leave me a comment if you feel like you are halfing something today. 

 

Misery loves company.

Hot Dog Deliciousness!

Hey loves! Sorry this post is a little late getting up but I was at Mom's last night visiting!

Ok so yesterday I had waffles because we are low on groceries and I didnt feel like eggs or oatmeal.

Had it with some light syurp drizzles.

 

Then of course I had to have a yogurt when I got to work...I have been trying the besties fave kind and i like it, its not nearly as tart as normal!

 

 

Then for lunch me and the brother met up to eat at D'Moes which is a great little spot in town that is known for their amazing hotdogs.  I had never been, Jonathan suggested it and had a coupon so off we went!

 

I was overwhelmed with all the choices so I went with what my brother suggested, the 6-D'Moe's Original: Wrapped in Bacon, D-Moe's Mustard sauce, Texas Pete, Onion, Jalapeno's & D'Moe's Blue Cheese Coleslaw. 

 

It did NOT dissapoint!

 

 

I also got a diet pepsi and sweet potatoe fries! SOOO DELICIOUS!

 

Blue cheese coleslaw yall.  That is what got me!!!

 

And I got to talk to this sweet boy!

 

 

We had a great time!!!

 

Sweet tater tots live on plus new snackage.

Hey loves!!!

I hope you all have had an amazing Tuesday so far.  Today it marks one week until my brother has to go back in to more training :( .  It seriously makes me an emotional wreck.  I don't know how y'all military families do it....

When he is NOT here, I keep thinking about him and worrying about him until he gets here. Then when he gets here I worry about him having to go back and how many precious moments are slipping away ...how much I am actually missing.  I think about how much I will regret not spending those minutes with him when he goes back! He is the only brother I have.  He is the only sibling I have.  I am older and I feel very protective over him and now I feel utterly powerless to protect him from anything.  And the News.  I have quickly learned to stay away from it. 

Anyways I don't want to put a damper on this post so lets get to the food shall we?

I had a pack of crackers for breakfast because I was utterly out of ideas and plans and groceries.

 

Lunch was this fett. alfredo with broccoli from smart ones and then I had a side salad with about a tbsp. of light honey Dijon and a garlic breadstick left over from last night.  It was very satisfying!

 

Then I got some awesome ideas from my girl Sam...I ate the whole can for 120 calories as my "desert".

 

Had this deliciousness around 4pm...another Sam snack haha.

 

 

Dinner was salmon patty topped with one slice reduced fat pepperjack cheese and green beans, one serving sweet tater tots, and mushrooms with a bit of Brummel and brown heated in the microwave.

 

I freaking love those tots.  

 

SO GOOD!

 

Then I still needed a little something...so this is also an idea I got off instagram from Samantha haha. She said she got this idea from her grandma!

 

Saltine crackers, topped with marshmallow (I heated mine in the oven and added mini chocolate chips-a teaspoon's worth). 

 

Well kids, that's all for tonight.  Laterz!

 

A Dinner Guest!

Hey loves I actually took food pics today for you!!! I am not doing the calories though but I recorded part of it on myfitnesspal.  Baby steps LOL.

Carrot cake luna bar and coffee ...It was pretty good!

 

Lunch was a weight watchers ziti with side salad with light honey Dijon

 

Yummy trail mix from aldis

 

Dinner was spaghetti and a side salad...with a very special guest...

 

 

the baby brother~!!!!

 

And the sweet hubby...

 

 

LOL Love my two favorite boys!!!

 

Desert was a small piece of a cheese Danish and a very small amount of milk!

We watched the new red dawn, which Jonathan hadn't seen yet, and had a very good night!

I hope you all did too!!

 

 

I'm Bacccck!!!!

Hey my loves!!!

First off I am SOOOOO SORRY, seriously sorry for leaving yall hanging with no explaination like that!  Totally not my style...BUT life happens sometime. It has been crazy lately that is for sure! Ok so lets see....

At the beginning of this week (last sunday) I missed doing the shred because I was gone most all the day.  I was starting to feel just blah and I knew we would be traveling later that week so I totally dropped the ball. Horrible.  I feel like poo for doing that and I totally regretted it.

Before I get into this whole weekend and where I have been I just want to lightly touch on the shred.  I did everything until day 17 before I stopped.  Ok here are my thoughts:  I did NOT do the entire shred but I noticed I was not really losing weight.  Now I was not perfect with my calories either so its not totally the shred's fault but when you are working that hard its a little disappointing not to see the scale move.  However I understand I was building muscle, and I can feel it in my arms.  Also the soreness went away after about the first week and the BIGGEST thing I was happy about was one night when I asked my hubby to scratch my back, he pointed out that he could feel like muscles or whatever in my back, admitting that it felt and looked like I had lost back fat! haha WOOO hOOO!!!

That was probably the most awesome thing about it LOL.  Ok so enough with that. I will continue to supplement the shred videos for workouts but I don't know when life will calm down enough to do the vid 30 days straight. I will let yall know.

Ok....so where have I been?!

Monday-Wednesday I worked my butt off preparing to be off work for the rest of the week! Wednesday night we left Charlotte and headed to Parris Island, SC to pick up my brother from Marine Recruit Basic Training!!!!! And to watch him graduate of course :)

In case yall don't remember....this is a pic of him right before he left.  Long hair and all :)

 

This was at his going away party, in the beginning of January. He has been gone since January 7th.  Normal basic training lasts 12 weeks (longer than any other branch of the military), however Jonathan had a runners injury, and had to be put into MRP which is basically a medical platoon.  He was backed up almost a month and had to go to a different company to continue his training when he got out of rehab.  So his original graduation date was April 5th and it was backed up to May 3rd. So it has been a long time coming!

So....this is my brother now....

No more hair! haha.

 

I like it though.  Man has he changed!!!

 

I knew he would look different and act different but it was seriously overwhelming the change in him.  He seemed to be a foot taller literally, he has wonderful posture, he is extremely polite and a tan that I am jealous of!  He has been through an extremely difficult four months but it has made him into a man. I am so incredibly proud of him. 

 

Yes I was totally crying my eyes out.

 

Ok so lets get back to the story shall we...

 

We go down Wednesday night with my parents and get a hotel room in Port Royal, about a mile or two from the base.  We get in around midnight and wake up at like literally 5am to get ready and be at the Motivational Run by 7am. 

 

 

This is dad.  We were so tired but excited so we didn't notice it too much.  We got a cinnamon roll and coffee because we were up too early for continental breakfast at the hotel.  This coffee shop in the visitors center had nothing healthy either.

 

 

 

So our first glimpse of my brother is at like 7am, running LOL.  We don't get to see him again until we get into the All Weather Training Facility when they are dismissed to us for family day.

 

 

One of the proudest best days ever. 

 

After we got up with him we had almost five hours to eat with him and walk around the base.  He could do anything with us just not leave base.

 

 

 

We ate a lunch buffet at the Lyceum on base.  This is NOT where they (the recruits) eat, this is a special dining hall.  But the recruits got to eat free there that day. 

AND man can my brother EAT!!!!  Seriously yall...he was on a diet before he left so he could make weight so for months he really restricted what he ate.  Now he eats like three plates within fifteen minutes without blinking lol. 

 

I had like this one plate and some deserts.  My brother had like two of these plates and two deserts LOL.  It really wasn't even that great.  My brother was excited about the cole slaw though.  He hadn't had any for four months.  He said this food was a bit better than what he was normally served.  Which made me sad.  Because I was not impressed with it.

 

So then we went to the Parris Island museum.

 

 

It was pretty neat seeing the history of the USMC.  Also a lot of famous people have been marines like Dorothy from Golden Girls and Montel Williams, to name a few! LOL.

 

I learned a lot while I was there.  There are two places Marines can go through basic.  East coasters go to ParrisIisland, and west coasters go to California.  However, Parris island is the ONLY place that women recruits are trained. 

 

We also went to the yellow footprints that millions of marines have stood on once they were dropped off the first time on Parris Island.  Jonathan found his and we took a pic!

 

 

These are the doors that all the recruits walk through ONCE and only ONCE.  Also ONLY recruits are allowed through them.

 

He held doors and opened doors for me and his mama all weekend!! SOOO precious!!

 

The next morning was Jonathan's graduation.  We had to get up super early again and eat a crappy hotel breakfast.  Our hotel itself was nice though, it was on base and an extremely large room!  It even had a kitchen! Fabulous beds as well. 

 

At 9am the ceremony started and lasted about an hour, then my brother was released to us for good! Well, the next 10 days at least.

 

 

 

 

 

 

So please forgive me friends, but I have been trying to spend every spare moment I have with him!

 

It is so hard seeing your little brother go through something that is wonderful yet very scary.  I have never been apart from him this long.  I am so proud of him.  I am so happy for him.  I know he is in God's hands. 

 

We had a party for him Saturday night and then today we all went to church and out to lunch.  Jonathan wore his uniform for Mom :)

 

 

 

I am going to try to start doing food pics again because I have eaten like a 15 year old boy all week and I am sick of it.  SO I will see you tomorrow!  Thanks for hanging in there you all, I missed you lots!!!! xoxox