I don't really know what to blog about.
I kind of miss the old format where I took pictures of my food but apparently I got to a point where I was too busy or burnt out on it.
I was doing pretty good with my diet and exercise until a few weeks ago and this past week when we were on vacation. I still tried to be mindful though and my eating was way different from vacations in the past.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and think, am I ever going to like what I see?
Or will there honestly be no stopping point?
Will I always love food and laziness more than health and skinniness?
Have I just got to the point where I honestly cannot change my diet anymore because it would really just make me that unhappy?
I love my Mexican lunch Sundays and date night Fridays with the hubby. I love cooking something delicious for us on the stove or in the crockpot on Saturdays. I can eat healthy about 4 days out of the week pretty effortless but the three other days I usually mess up at least one meal.
Why is it so difficult to stay on track and within my calories? Calorie counting is pretty much the easiest thing ever. Especially with apps like my fitness pal, I have no excuse.
Of course there is no giving up. I cant see my self ever going back to getting biscuits in the morning or eating fries with lunch everyday, it is just not who I am anymore. Sure I have fries once in a while but it is very rare.
Just this past Sunday on the way home from vacation we stopped at a burger king and I told Jacob it had been so long since I had been to one I barely knew what they had anymore!
Every month I think, this is MY month! I have got this! Then my hormones throw me for a loop, or family drama makes me crazy or work has my stomach in a knot or whatever else excuse falls in my lap! I feel like I will NEVER make it out of the 170s.
But my question is, if I do have any readers left out there, what do you want to read on this blog? I always try to do pictures of some kind. More of a day to day random health related update? Or food pics or what? Let me know what you enjoy reading. It will help make up my mind how to start blogging again. I really miss it. I love hearing from you all and comments make me immensely happy! I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and are getting ready for Christmas, I know we are!